Reality...

Right now I am overwhelmed...

I have been on the verge of tears for a couple days mostly because I am exhausted and frustrated...

I have soooo much to do and not enough time to do it in... and yet, here I am blogging...

So, for some motivation... A to do list:

Laundry (must do soon or will have to contemplate life as a nudist)

Clean my room (It is really bad and its disorganization is adding to my frustration)

Paper (write it, due on Wednesday)

School (one thing I don't mind having to do!)

Make 100 paper flowers for mothers day craft at work.

Fill out paperwork for Russian visa (I have a little time while I am still waiting for my passport)

Pay Bills (must go to bank today!)

a million other little things....

But one thing I really need to do is spend some hardcore quality time with my Jesus... I know a lot of my exhaustion and frustration is because my devotional times have been rushed lately...

From the Newsboys....

Be Still

Be still and know He
Know He is holy
Be still and know He is God
We have filled our lives with inventions
That have hurried us nowhere fast
Now we need to turn our attentions
To what will last

Chorus:
Be still and know He
Know He is holy
Be still and know He is God
Love Him more dearly
See Him more clearly
Be still and know He is God

We've been running without a direction
We're afraid to get there late
What we need is strength just to kneel down
And wait

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Last night I went to church after work. It always bums me out a little becasue I really want to be there for the whole service so I usually don't like to go over there after work just to hang out. But I have gone a couple times and I know God uses even those few minutes to bless me. Last night as I walked in, my good friend and rad youth pastor was finishing up his message and was giving an altar call, and I was praying that whatever he had just shared would have stirred something in the hearts of the youth... and then we did "one last song" and as it so often works out I was ministered to and I can't even remeber the song I just know that a few minutes spent wholeheartedly focused on Jesus can make a world of difference...

I have been trying to work on something that I need to do and I keep coming up against a brick wall...

Brick Walls Suck...

I am gonna go get redy for one more day of insanity....