Scary and warm

I sometimes find myself wanting to blog, then questioning the wisdom of throwing everything out there on the Internet.

Over the last week or so I had a mild cancer scare. I knew it was a small chance, but with my family's history, any chance scared the crap out of me. Told a few close peeps, who kept telling me "It's not a tumah!"  But honestly having to go through the testing and wait for the results and everything has been no fun. My doctor reassured me that my risks were low, and is in fact the person who told me this morning that it is NOT cancer. (Thanks Doc!) even though it wasn't him who ordered the tests, I knew the results were in my chart, so I may have asked him to look for me. I've been really stressed. And if nothing else, this is a huge relief.

I might still need to have surgery. This I can deal with. I can't deal with cancer right now. I've lost too many people to it and I just can't right now.

In the midst of that, and my blood pressure freaking out, and getting acute bronchitis, and having my asthma flare up, and my ovaries act up, I apparently traumatized one of my larger toenails and it is in the process of replacing itself. The old one is going to fall off and I will have a new baby one underneath. But my shoulder is doing pretty good. I am thankful for that.

My mental health is doing pretty good. Even through the super stressful weeks I've been having, I haven't felt hopeless or out of control, so we'll give points to therapy and good meds.

We are in the middle of a crazy heat wave up here. They've banned consumer fireworks due to the historical dryness and high fire danger, but so far are allowing the municipal display planned over the harbor.

I really like making little treats for holidays. One of the things I miss about being up here is that I don't have my huge group of friends to gather for random parties just because it's Harry Potter's birthday or Star Wars Day or something like that. I did make firecracker treats out of lifesavers mints for my support team. I was told I was a "very  thoughtful, kind person" by one of them, "Awesome  as always" and "incredibly crafty" these are the professionals that keep me going folks. I love them all. Only two of them had to ask what they were LOL

This is pretty disjointed, but it is warm and I've been up since three am and I really need a nap. If someone has a walk in AC unit I could borrow to sleep in, that would be great.