Friday Night Live

I went to Friday Night Live with the youth tonight. I had a lot of fun. I love that I keep seeing different aspects of God's character everyday. We sand the song that says, "I'll never know just how much it cost, to see my sins upon that cross." and always when I heard that song I was so sad that my sins hurt God so bad.

I got saved at Missionettes Camp in 1996, and the whole reason I went forward and did the whole "got saved" thing was because the speaker told us that our sins are what made Jesus die. Which made me so sad, so I went and got saved. While I disagree with the tactic now (possibly more on why later), I am greatful because that was when all the church stuff first became real.

So that song has always connected me to that horrible greif that I caused Jesus. Tonight when we were singing that song I began with that same mentality and at some point I felt that God was telling me that me not knowing the grief that my sins caused him was part of the plan of salvation. Jesus took our sins and grief and shame so that we would never have to bear that unbearable burden.

God is so amazing, and I am glad that I am His child.