55 hours!

Well, it has been a week since I filled the blogoverse in on my doings, and I am up at 3 am, so why not?

On work:
Sunday: I went and delivered Amazon parcels and then my manager had me case on a few routes so I could get the hang of casing for a rural route.

Monday: I went in to case the mail for Tuesday on my new route and they had me help with parcel deliveries.

Tuesday: I carried half of the route I am learning.

Wednesday: I carried the other half of the route I am learning.

Thursday: I cased and carried about 3/4 of the route I am learning. (This was a 12 hour day)

Friday: I was supposed to carry parcels on the route I am learning, but they had me take half of a different route instead.  Week 1 total: 55 hours.

Saturday: I cased and carried about 2/3 of the route I am learning. This was a rough day. I cried most of the morning and I really am not feeling content right now.

Today: Amazon parcel day.

This week: I am scheduled Mon-Wed to work on yet another route they are having me learn and we shall see from there. We are having an employee appreciation brunch on Tuesday (I am getting an award for perfect attendance LOL) and I need to wedge a doctor's appointment in there somewhere.


Update from the Doc:
I called the doctor's office Monday morning. My amazing doctor wasn't in, but his equally amazing nurse (The amazing Maria) got right back to me and said she'd talk to him and get back to me. Later in the afternoon, I got a call saying that my fun response to the medication was probably just side effects, and that once they subside I can increase my dosage as planned (2 pills a day, instead of 1) and that if they don't go away in a few weeks to come in and we'll figure it out. Well, I have felt better the past few days, and I plan on doing my planned increase starting tonight.

After my little episode I apparently scared my friend at work, everyday she comes and says I have food stashed and you should eat it if you need to. It makes me laugh, and I appreciate having someone look out for me. I had a little chat with my manager about some of the health issues and how they might affect work, and we have discussed how to handle any situations that occur. This also lets her know that I am going to have doctor's appointments I have to go to, and while the post office is trying to own my soul, my physical self is going to the doctor. I know I appreciate having information ahead of time and basically want to make sure that if anything happened to me at work that someone could give the paramedics a heads up. (I don't think I have to worry about any major health issues happening, but what if there is a vehicular collision (people on the island drive like locos) and I am not conscious?

I have to admit, I have noticed some small improvements overall in how I feel, and some annoying things that I have always just dealt with have been less annoying lately, so seeking medical attention has worked out so far. Still have my fear of doctors (yes, even though I pretty much adore and trust MY doctor, the rest are still up for debate) and I am still trying to get over the fear of needles, but BABY STEPS!

I did find out I have a small grace period on the insurance front, and after consulting with the doc via email, I will be seeing him at some point this week to "discuss some things" This statement always makes me nervous. But we'll see what there is to discuss before I freak myself out too much.


On the dietary front:
I need to get more organized. I am okay with breakfast and mostly okay with lunch. But by the time I get home at night I have less than zero desire to cook. Add to the fact that any and all convenience type foods have way too much salt/simple carbs/or anything else I shouldn’t eat in them, I am basically out of luck at dinner time, so I end up eating either something I shouldn't (while still trying to make better choices) or not really eating. My goal is to get home early enough today or go in late enough tomorrow to make a batch of shredded salsa chicken in the crock pot and at some other point to make my favourite chicken, zucchini and stuffing mess. The chicken zucchini stuff is a meal that I am going to attempt to make healthier by tweaking ratios and whatnot. More veggies and chicken, less of the stuffing and other yummies. If I can get those both done, and make some pasta sauce, I will be able to have quick meals for a while.

Mentally: I will admit, I am not doing great on this front. But I know that it is 90% me being overwhelmed and stressed (90% of that 90%- you do the math, I majored in history) is work. The rest is health and just life in general. I don't think I am depressed per say, just sad. I can and frequently am happy, but my current baseline is less content than I would like.

I know I am incredibly blessed and don't have that much to worry about in the grand scheme of things. I have shelter, and clean water, am able to buy groceries and have access to good healthcare. I have good friends and amazing coworkers. I am employed, and am able to pay my bills, even if there isn't much left over at the end. I have my beloved, who is there for me, even though we don't get to see each other or talk much lately, I know he is there if I really need him, and that gives me so much support. And I know that I have a big God who loves me more than I can comprehend, I just need to work on being more mindful of my blessings when I am feeling overwhelmed.

Weather: I finally had 1st sweatshirt day this week. Last year it occurred in August, so I was beginning to feel forgotten. But I am so excited for the cold rainy weather we have been getting!