So, I went on a not-quite blind internet date on Sunday. I met up with a really great guy who I've been writing back and forth with for a few months. We had a lot of fun. Enough fun that we plan on seeing each other again. I don't know where this is going to go, but I'm totally looking forward to findong out.
So, I feel like I've abandoned my blog but I really haven't. There has just been so much going on. Some things I can share freely, some I can't, but I can share that I have been growing and changing in so many ways. I definitely believe that this is the summer of my independence.
I've been learning more about being on my own and being happy with who I am.
I've dealt with some hardcore struggles, and learned that no matter what the issue is, the answer is at the foot of the cross.
I am really looking forward to the trip to the Grand Canyon at the end of the month, and an upcoming trip to Georgia to see the world's largest aquarium.
I just wanted to put in an update, I should have another one soon...
The Last time Nate spoke, he talked about how we worship God because of who God is, not because of how we feel. SOmething that I've known for awhile but needed to be reminded of.
Last Wednesday, I was in youth and we were doing CD worship which I don't especially love. When I remembered what had been said the Sunday previous, and so I decided to try it out. I was standing there and I was overwhelmed by a fresh sense of awe at the greatness of God.
I then was able to enter into a time of amazing worship with the majestic creator of the universe, not because I was feeling particularul good, but because He is constant, through the good, the bad, and the ugly, God stays the same.
I have a great story about how awesome God is, but I am leaving for San Francisco, so you just have to wait to hear it!
I hate to leave you guys hanging but I wanted to say that before I left... details upon my return!
I have been crazy hectic in my life lately. 90 % of that is my fault. I embrace that it is my fault and that I have to deal with the consequences of my actions.
I've made decisions that have ended up with me getting hurt... again... I knew it was going to happen, but was willing to go through the pain, so here I am wincing at the slightest jab to my bruised self...
I am fighting off this "bug" that wants to be a cold or an ear infection or something, but doesn't actually make me feel bad. I am just tired and fuzzy, and coughing, but not horribly.
I am very excited for my upcoming vacation to San Francisco. Fourth of July by the Bay! I am going with some good friends from work and I am looking forward to being able to relax.
My next post will be a report on that unless I feel some pressing need to post something before then. However, my computer is being lame, so I don't know if I'll be able to post pics right away.
I have been blogging, but what I have been pouring from my heart has not been anything I have felt like sharing.
Someone whose blog I read did this so I am going to too...
Some things I currently love...
Jurassic Park, The Ride! I love flume rides, and this is better than any other one ever... Why? BECAUSE THERE ARE DINOSAURS! I don't however love it when you have to share a row with people who try to squeeze your lungs out by pushing down on the lap bar....
It hasn't come out yet, so I am not positive I will love it, but the previews are amazing, and it has the incredibly good looking Johnny Depp in it... I want this poster!
A couple of Sundays ago, my friend bridget bought me a snack of regular Hot Cheetos upon her discovery that I had never tried them. I have become a HUGE fan in only a week, and I actually like the baked ones better, because there is less grease!
I love the color blue! It is a happy color and it makes me smile! I also love the Universal Tram Ride!
I haven't dissapeared.
I've just been busy.
But thanks to my imminent schedule change that will hopefully change.
I finally have Wednesdays off! I have been trying to get Wednesdays off for over a year and I finally got them! Hooray!
I also work less on Saturdays! This excites me! I do work on Thursdays now, but that is okay with me.
I have been dealing with a lot spiritually but, as it says in the song Indescribable:
"You know the depths of my heart and you love me the same, You are Amazing God" and I just gotta hold on to that.
Physically I HAVE been feeling better. I have slept in my bed for a week now, and I am so thankful. I was beginning to think I would never get to sleep again...
I got to touch the ceiling of the church gym... I never would have thought that would excite me as much as it did. Now I just need to recuperate a little bit more and then I can go on the swing!
I am needing to make decisions about my future, and I am highly humored that I am having such a difficult time with this. I wanted to be a teacher for the longest time as a child. Then I decided that this was the last thing I wanted to do, but now I'm not so sure.... I just don't know...
I have some other stuff I've been delaing with, but that stuff isn't for publication on the internet. It just doesn't belong on the web...
But, yes, for those people concerned about me, especially those that witnessed my behavior as of late, I am okay... I am getting better, but as always prayer is appreciated.
