Pain in the...

Therapy was really productive yesterday, we looked at how different events from my past have influenced who I am now, and how I react to various situations. It was rough for me to admit to the fact that some things affected me way more than I ever pretend. We discussed how even long after something has happened and is no longer a gaping wound in your heart, there can be scars and just like scar tissue in the body, this can hinder the healthy function of your emotional health. But I am looking forward to continuing to work towards a healthier mental state by actively addressing issues, instead of trying to ignore them.

After therapy we (my love and I) went out to dinner and I had a grilled chicken salad, still trying to make better decisions but live a normal life.

After dinner we went to Trader Joes. It was fun getting to do something pretty mundane together. I found some mini ice cream mint sandwich cookie things that are amazing, and only 9 carbs each. I also grabbed some fig and olive crisps to enjoy with my bovre cheese and a salad to eat for a meal (it was planned for lunch today, but I ended up bringing it home, and will probably eat it for dinner.

I went into work today intending to carry a route that I was scheduled on, but after an hour or so, the pain in my shoulder made it very apparent that I shouldn't be working. I have been having difficulty sleeping for the last few days because of the pain, but I am seriously irritated that it is now interfering with my ability to work. Wanted to discuss the issue with my doctor but he is out of the office until next week. I am going to continue with my standing orders, until I can get in to see him. I have an appointment on Wednesday for a follow up so worst case, I just have to make it a week. :/ If the pain gets any worse I can call the clinic and one of his colleagues can prescribe something, but in reality I would like the person with the hands on knowledge of everything to make any calls on prescriptions.

I am still waiting to hear back about my MRI, but I know my doctor really wanted the results by next Wednesday. At this rate, I don't think that is going to happen.  I also haven't heard back from physical therapy. At this point I would love to know if it really is a tear or just a sprain. (Please be just a sprain!)

That's my today (and yesterday) and other than icing my shoulder and watching Criminal Minds, I have no plans for the rest of the day.