random update.

Well, I found out that the Physical Therapist I have been seeing is not a provider that is covered by the worker's comp, so I am going to have to pay for it. Thankfully, they are offering me both a discount and are going to work with me on setting up a payment plan. I honestly really like this place, and consider the cost to be worth it, however, I am going to reevaluate with my doctor on Wednesday if I need to continue the therapy sessions. I am hoping that he will decide I don't need an MRI so trust me, I am doing all I can to follow the orders of both him and the physical therapist.

One thing I have been discovering through my various therapies, is that my constant assertion that I do not like being touched, is not actually accurate. I am just not used to it. Physical therapy has shown me that I actually really enjoy a good massage. We were minimizing it at first because I was not comfortable with the idea, but have slowly worked up to actually looking forward to that part of my therapy. I was discussing my craving for physical contact with my regular (non-physical) therapist, and we discussed how I feel touch strongly, so it tends to overwhelm me in large doses. The possibility of a sensory processing disorder was discussed too. It would make sense though. I know I can't function properly if I am uncomfortable. If my shoes don't fit right, I literally can not function. Food that feels weird in my mouth can not be eaten without a lot of discomfort (my issues with mushrooms and shrimp are easy examples, I don't hate the flavor, just the way they feel in my mouth) Loud noises bother me more than they should and there are a handful of other things that make me suspect she may be right. More things to work on I suppose.

I have finished two routes all on my own this week, which is good. I have a lot of stress at work right now, and being able to say I did these routes on my own helps a bit. I don't really think there is anything I can do about a lot of the rest of my stress, except try to ignore the source of it. Which is far easier said than done.

I have been super hungry the past few days. I don't really know why. My blood sugars have been good, but slightly lower than usual. I really want foods I shouldn't be eating too. :/ I've been pretty good at avoiding them, but it is taking some willpower.