Ugh.

Today was pretty random.

I had an incredibly rough day yesterday, that route that I suck at? I sucked extra yesterday, and I am reasonably sure that I won't be carrying it again. While sad about the loss of hours, I can't pretend that the stress relief isn't worth having to be more careful with my money. I was already having a rough day(emotionally) before work, and then I thought I was doing pretty good, and then it went downhill so quickly. I actually knew fairly early in the day that I wasn't in a good place, and had already made plans with a friend to go out at night, so I canceled the plans, telling her I didn't want to inflict my bad mood on her, because it was neither fair nor polite to her. She, being the amazing friend she is, immediately made sure I was okay, and I told her what was bugging me (having friends you can tell anything to is important) and she told me not to worry about the plans, and when she was done working offered to bring me anything I needed, even though she would probably get lost trying to find me. I told her I'd be fine, and kept working. After the day from Hell was over, I had an interesting talk with my supervisor. He told me, I don't know what it is about you and this route, but it isn't working. I told him I had worked straight through the day (didn't even stop for a bathroom break or to eat and had literally been doing nothing but delivering mail all day. He said he believed me and he knows I am a hard worker, but something about this route just psyches me out. To his credit, he noticed something was off with me when I got back, and actually stopped me to make sure I was okay. I told him not really but it is what it is. Later, I thanked him for not being a jerk to me about the day. He might have been super justified if he had been, it was that bad of a day, but he wasn't and it was much appreciated. My friend checked on me later in the evening, and all I can say is I survived, but am still not thrilled about yesterday.

My friend who is staying with me was out for the evening, and I had warned him that I was super grouchy so I was going to head to bed early. Since he was out, I had the house to myself, which was nice because it enabled me to de-stress. I tried to go to Taco Bell for my standard long day don't want to cook dinner, only to be told they no longer have my Baja Blast in Diet. That was super frustrating to be sure. I ended up getting Burger King for dinner and then read for a while, talked to both my friend and my favorite person via text for a while and then headed to bed. When my homie got back for the evening, I was in bed and super unconscious, but when I woke up around 1 am, I noticed he had texted me asking if I was alive when he got back. I was alive, just asleep.

The alarms started going off at 5:30am though. And then it was time for Amazon Day. My friend who knew I was having a rough day the day before, surprised me with a sugar-free iced vanilla latte and a teddy bear this morning at work. It was very sweet of her. We also made plans to hang out this afternoon. After work, the three of us headed back to the house so homie could get ready for his superbowl party, and then my friend and I decided to go out to lunch, but that we had to head back to her house a few towns over first. So we went to her house, and I got to meet her puppies (dogs really) and one of them was a super sweetie. We went to Outback for lunch, and I got a burger (with the bun!) and had a salad as my side, it was a little carby, but not terrible. I had a small taste of my friend's cocktail, it tastes like a gummy bear, and as soon as I can drink again, we are going to have an evening of playing bartender. After lunch, we stopped at Walmart so I could pick up my prescriptions and after we walked around for a while we both picked out some fun purchases and then we headed home. She went home to take a nap and then I turned the game on. I recently have started actually watching football. I always thought it was boring, but the more I watch, the more I figure out, and then it is less boring.

I watched the end of the game and am now blogging, before I head to bed for the evening. Tomorrow, I have therapy, and to be perfectly honest, it is one of those sessions where I know it isn't going to be fun, but probably very needed. It has been a few days of things happening that make me very grateful I have my pills, even though I really don't want to take them, I know they are helping me.

My week as of now:
     Mon: Therapy and possibly dinner with my favorite person.
     Tue: Work my assigned route, Make pasta dinner for friends at my house.
     Wed: Two appointments,
     Thu: Work another route
     Fri: Not scheduled and actually have no plans as of yet. I might go on an
            adventure