It is Here...

My visa came this morning...

There went my last hope of staying home...

I know I'll enjoy my trip, but still it is stressful....

Standing on an Iceberg....

Yes, I officially have cold feet. With Under a week to go, I am finally freaking out in a major way. I spent a good portion of the evening trying to back-out of my trip, but neither Sarah nor Nate were going to let me get away with that.

I really would rather stay home guys...

I don't know what I was thinking...

I don't want to go...

AAAARRRGGGHHHH!

I AM SUCH AN IDIOT!!!!!

7/14

So, just so y'all know this post is pretty freaking Emo, but I was inspired to do this by another person's blog which is made up of letters to her dead mother.

07/14/2008

Dear Mom,

So, today it has been ten years since you died. Yes, I am still as blunt as ever. I do miss you and always have, although I will admit that I feel it more now that grandma is gone too. I was reflecting on how much life happens in a ten-year period of time, and remebering all the times I missed you during big events in my life, and the little ones too. God has been amazing and has placed people in my life who are there for me and are like my family. So I decided to make a list of things that have happened that I wish I could've shared with you. (yes I still make lots of lists for fun)
Since July 14th 1998 I...
was a member of the Varsity Track team in high school, that is something I bet you never saw coming! Was cast as Ma Gibbs in Our Town but didn't get to finish the play due to grades...
I did actually graduate from high school, although I know you worried for a while.
I went to Harbor College and graduated although it did take me 3 years longer than it should have.
Have worked at 3 main jobs Target, as a Nanny for a lady at church (you guys would've been good friends, your senses of humor are similar)and I work at a library now, they were good experiences all of them. Got fired from one of them, but even that ended up working for good.
My groups of friends have changed a few times, but I know you would like my current friends. They look out for me and treat me good. They are real friends, something I know you always wanted for me. There are a couple people I wish you could meet because they mean the world to me, and it just feels wrong sometimes to know that they will never have met you.
I finally forgave dad, and the last thing I said to him was I Love You, I really am glad because I don't think I could bear it if I hadn't told him before he died.
There are somethings that always make me think of you, like daffodils, apple dumplings like we had that one summer, sloppy joes made with ketchup, cow candles especially if they have big pink lips, Star Trek and Santa Claus.
I got to go to Disneyworld a few years ago, and it was amazing. I have also been to Hawaii and am leaving to go to Russia and Scandinavia next week. I know that is a totallyt new thing and nothing I ever aspired to when I was younger, but it is an exciting thing I wish I could share with you. I am kind of freaked out, but I know it'll be a good time. I still might get to the pyramids some day.
I finally quit wearing that green dress.
I am on the Dean's List and am going to graduate with honor's this school year, yes I know you are shocked and amazed but I know you would be proud of me.
I miss grandma a lot more than I ever thought possible, which is kind of wierd because you were very right about how much we would disagree with each other and drive each other crazy.
I have a real relationship with God now and I now get the whole concept. Pastor John told me that you used to pray that I would come to a place where it was a real relationship, and I now understand why. He also told me that you used to pray that God would use me to do big things. Thank you for praying for me even though I didn't know it until recently.

There is so much more I would love to share with you over cups of tea and jiffy muffins, but this blog will have to do for now. I love you and miss you always,

Stacey Louise

And the Cookie goes to...

Me!

The Answer is...

Tock the Watchdog from The Phantom Tollbooth


Check it out on Amazon

http://www.amazon.com/Phantom-Tollbooth-Norton-Juster/dp/0394815009/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1215793437&sr=8-1


Oh look someone made a plushie of Tock!




More Later!

Less than 2 weeks

and I am slowly becoming overwhelmed with all of the stuff I have to do.

But first, I really need my passport/visa to come back so I can, in fact, go on my trip. If it isn't here by tomorrow I will have to call and find out about it.

I did however get a suitcase, some sunglasses, and a better neck pillow while I was at my aunt's house this weekend. I also got a funky 5 dollar man watch that I am going to disassemble and try to make cuter. I don't use watches while in America, so I just need it for the trip.

I need to sew up the two cute sundresses that I bought to be sewn and get all of my travel toiletries organized, and seriously do all of my laundry so I can contemplate what exactly I am taking with me!

And I need to leave for work in about 20 minutes, but my back is bothering me and I don't really want to go to work, but today is my craft program, so I must go.

I am having one of those "I wish I was irresponsible/ didn't have certain responsibilities" type of days. Oh how grand that would be.

I have read a couple of interesting books lately and will have a mini book report soon.

A dose of Reality

I found this on someone else's blog and I thought it was amazing...so I thought I would share


Psalms: On Single-Mindedness
Lord of reality
make me real
not plastic
synthetic
pretend phony
an actor playing out his part
hypocrite.
I don’t want
to keep a prayer list
but to pray
nor agonize to find Your will
but to obey
what I already know
to argue
theories of inspiration
but submit to Your Word.
I don’t want
to explain the difference
between eros and philos
and agape
but to love.
I don’t want
to sing as if I mean it
I want to mean it.
I don’t want
to tell it like it is
but to be it
like You want it.

( via Psalms of My Life - Joseph Bayly - Tyndale Treasures , copyright 1969 )

20 and Counting

It is officially less than 3 weeks til I leave, and I am actually on my way to a mini trip tonight...

I am going to my aunts house in Sacramento until Sun Night, I am hijacking Denise and making her go with.

We are taking the train..and a buss anctually we are going bus train bus but we are young and adventure is good for the soul!

I'll be back by Monday (and am excited about it!)

I have a hardcore look at PSalms 24 planned for an upcoming blog, so everyone should read it. It is a good chapter.

I am reading quite a few books and am excited to be reading them.

I wish I could take a nap before I leave but I leave in like 3 hours so I prolly don't have time.

That is Why I am blogging...to kill time, although a character in one of my favorite books would hate to hear me say that.

That is actually a good guessing gaqme to leave you all entertaind while I am gone, What character and Book is it where the character hates the phrase "killing time"? Massive props and maybe even a cookie for whoever gets it right!