Political Quiz

I was just looking back at some of my blogs and found it interesting, maybe you should do the same... Even more interesting were those blogs I wrote but never had the courage to post.

I also found an amazing quiz on politics...

http://abcnews.go.com/Politics/MatchoMatic/fullpage?id=5542139


My results were actually surprising....

More Sleep=Good

So the melatonin is working. This is very exciting.

I am still however sleepy but hopefully that will pass as I get back into a natural sleep cycle.

That's all I have to say right now.

Desperation

Oh how I wish this post was about being desperate for Jesus. It's not. It is about something so much more basic than that.

I haven't been getting much sleep lately, and I am exhausted.

I really just want to curl up and sleep for a week or longer.

I was concerned that I am under a spiritual type of attack but I didn't think so. Because well, I just didn't...

Apparently my pills can reduce the body's natural levels of meletonin making falling asleep and or staying asleep (my problem) difficult. So I am going to try supplementing it. I hope it works. If I can't get rest soon I am going to go crazy. Literally.... Book me a padded room kind of crazy...

There is just too much going on...

Please pray that I get some sleep...

I'm getting desperate.

An Eventful Weekend

So, On Friday my coworkers celebrated my birthday with me and we had yummy ice cream bars and they gave me a cute card with owlies on it. On Saturday I went to Hallelujah Jubilee at Six Flags but didn't go to any shows. I had a really good time, even though I was dissappointed to find that I couldn't do a lot of the rides. Today my friends and I had a picnic-y party at the park. It was a very full but fun weekend.

So, I am at school ungodly early.

I have four things to work on, but in reality, I just don't want to.

I really shouldn't have taken this Colonial America class. It isn't really my interest, and it is a LOT of work. I also don't need it. But it is basically too late. It should be interesting though.

I am kinda hungry but just ate like 3 hours ago and so I shouldn't be.

I did get my grad check done, I just need to have Dr. Jeffers sign off on it and I am good to go.

I have been asked what I want for my birthday and the reality of it is that I just don't know. Anything I want isn't something anyone could give me (except for God) and although I know there is stuff I want, it isn't anything I would ask for lol.

I feel like I am going through a Eustace experience with God lately.(Eustace from Narnia LOL) He is stripping things away from me, and while I recognize the neccesity and benefit of this, I wish it wasn't so painful. I can't wait for this period to be over.... I especially dislike the removal of my guard walls, I HATE feeling vulnerable all the time.

My cousins are taking me out for dinner for my birthday on thursday. It should be fun, I like hanging out with them.

Bleh... I hate being angsty all the time too....

okay Rant over.....

On a lighter note I saw that they have created this kit for slice and bake cupcakes....Yum.. the epitome of laziness......

The Road to Hell....

So, my intentions were to blog more regularly than I do currently. They were also to go on a diet, get my room cleaned, return all of my library books, stay on schedule with my reading, and get my grad school applications finished.

I have failed at all of these.

I need to get with it, but all I really want to do is sleep. Not that I do, of course. I haven't been sleeping well. It is a combination of having too much on my mind, and some really weird dreams, but I have only been getting about 3-5 hours of sleep every night. I am a seven hours is ideal person, and I have been getting not enough for me.

I have postponed my diet indefinitly, but am making better choices. And I have been loosing weight, so I am not gonna let myself stress about that.

I would get my room clean if I had time to do so.

I need to return my books, as they are all so late that they appear to be lost.

I need to catch up on reading. I could read while I am lying awake at night, but I do need to retain what I read, so I am not sure if that is a good idea.

And grad school apps. What to do about those? I know that I need to fill them out, but there is a portion of them that I am stuck on. The statement of purpose. This is supposed to tell the school why I want to go there, and why I would be a good addition to their student body. For grad school it also is supposed to convey to them the desire to financially support me while finishing my degree program.

So, here is a good portion of my stress and angst. I also have emotional things going on, but I don't feel like writing about those.

What is great/ frustrating is that I know in the midst of all of this madness, that God is in control of everything. And He does watch over me, but I need all of this plus other stuff to be over.

I have been contemplating the finishing of my trip posts, but I am kind of over it to be honest. Anyone who really wants to see the pics can see them when I get them scrapbooked.

Okay...explosion of angst over...

So,

Today I had a staff meeting at work, which meant that I had to be up super early.

I was out kind of late last night.

I am exhausted.

I LOVE being back in school.

I am however, kind of angsty and emo.

It is a combination of frustration, exhaustion, and the season of life that I am in currently.

Please, have patience with me, I am trying to be "normal" or at least tolerable.