One Short Day...

So on Thursday, I was taking my midterm and I completely blanked as soon as the professor handed me my test. I was really freaking out, I frantically struggled for the answers to the questions that I had just been able to discuss with not only one of my classmates, but also with the professor earlier in the morning. It was not pretty, let me tell you. I sat there pleading with my brain to give me anything and still nada. I prayed about four different times, and I still felt completely hopeless. I finally just started writing everything I could remember down in the bluebook covers, in hopes of triggering something.

Well, today I got my test back and I really didn't want to see what my grade was. But I looked and literally my jaw hit the floor when I saw my grade. I got 19.5 out of 20! I was thrilled beyond reason. Really! It is assignments like this that often make me wonder if I am crazy to be wanting to get a Ph.D. and it is the jubilation I feel when stuff like that happens that reminds me that though I may be cray, I am happy!

I know that I am school obsessed and that it has a tendency to reach levels of unhealthiness, but I also know that part of my obsession is a serious case of insecurity. I was talking to one of my professors who told me that I am harder on myself than anyone else and that while it makes my scholarship (the verb, not the financial kind) superior, it is going to give me a stress related illness if I don't relax.

I sent out an email today to the history club with a typo in it. No one caught it but the dept chair. I accidentally wrote CSDUHHistoryclub instead of CSUDHHistoryclub... I was embarrassed at my mistake, then more so when I realied that my typo said CS DUH History Club LOL! Oh well...

I sent away for a quote on my Russia vacation that I am always going on about. I was palnning on going next summer, but the more I think about it, the more that this summer sounds like a good idea... Oh well I have a 60 page speech by Kruschev to read so I'll let this be all for tonight...