I have been feeling a need to do some things in my life lately.
One thing is that I need to tell someone my life story, ALL of it, not just the parts it doesn't hurt to tell. I am kind of afraid to scare people away, or bore them to tears, but I feel a need to do this. I am not talking about a whole "On Sunday, September 20th 1981 at 9:53 am I was born" type telling, I am talking about the bits of me that no one knows about. The bits that make me afraid that anyone who knows will be so appalled they'll never talk to me again.
The idea is both really frightening, and extremely appealing at the same time...
Intelectually I know that nothing I could say would send my real friends running, but there is that super insecure part of me that keeps saying "you don't have any real friends" and it makes me deeply afraid...
I just don't know what to do.
Friday, February 6, 2009
frightened
Posted by sharkiepatronus at 10:21 PM
Labels: Angst, God Things, life
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3 comments:
i'm your real friend *raises hand*
You should definitely do it, all of it - be raw, it is so vulnerable and frightening, but life giving at the same time.
Well... I think you know on some level I'll still be there. And I wont look at you through the filter of the ugly past...
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