ch-ch-changes

Sometimes I have days where I wonder why I bother with doing anything at all that is good for me, and then there are days where I just get it. I understand why I am trying to be healthy and take care of issues from my past, and be a good employee and try to have healthy relationships. Today has been a both kind of day.

On the work front: As I was waiting for my therapy appointment, I texted my supervisor to see if he was serious when he jokingly mentioned that he might switch my route. If he was serious, I needed to schedule future appointments on a different day than Tuesday. And then he asked me what I thought, and at first I wasn't sure if he was being sarcastic or serious, but I answered as if he was genuinely looking for my input. I told him that I was clearly better at the "new" route and that I would honestly prefer to have that be my assigned route, but that it was his decision because he is the bossman, and that I am not that lucky. Thankfully, he replied with lets do it. I am so freaking happy. I adore the regular carrier on the route I was originally assigned to, and honestly I will probably still have to carry it for a while, but the fact that it will someday belong to another sub, gives me great joy. The new route I am going to be assigned to is as close to a city route as I am going to get, but with all of the fun of rural mail carrying.

Blood sugar has been within my acceptable ranges today. I have even been within *my* acceptable range (which is less than the doctor's because I like to be hard on myself)

Food:
Breakfast: Pizza Muffins and Lindt Balls (40-45)
Lunch: Mongolian BBQ yumminess (whatever was in the veggies and sauce, but I avoided the sweeter sauces for the most part, going for hot and garlic, although I did add a very small amount of oyster sauce and mongolian sauce) This was really good. Now that my therapy is on a different day though, I won't be going to Silverdale as much, so fewer excuses to eat this. :(

Dinner: I honestly have no clue. I am debating eating the toppings off of a pizza or hitting up taco bell. I thought about making chicken and dumplings too, but am trying to clean the kitchen tonight not make it worse LOL I'll figure it out.

Therapy: went pretty good. Told her about the rough week/weekend at work and how it made me want to die rather than go back (I told y'all Sunday was rough) Talked about Thanksgiving and how it was celebrated, and we delved deeper into some past issues that are affecting present Stacey. This is the less fun part of therapy, but I think it is going to be healthy in the long run.I didn't leave feeling super cleansed emotionally like I did last week, but I do think progress was made.

I did get the health insurance sorted. The PO sent me a letter saying I was eligible for their insurance, so I wasn't going to argue, and I signed up for it again, the premiums are half what I would be getting from the ACA marketplace and although the deductible and the max out of pocket are higher, the copays are also lower than what I have been paying and mental health stuff is covered, with a copay.

I am currently doing laundry, and I think I have decided to have taco bell for dinner, I really want the pizza but Taco Bell is cheaper and easier, am going to try to get the kitchen cleaned and sorted (I bought a new minor appliance today... any guesses as to what it is?) and I got whole wheat mini bagels! They have the same amount of carbs as the bread I eat, but with yummy bagel texture! I am so excited for a change in my breakfast routine! My ultimate goal is to head to bed by ten and hope for a good night's sleep, for tomorrow comes too quickly.