Yesterday

I actually do have reasons for blogging everything, especially my mental state right now (hint, it involves having to recall details later) And since I wasn't in any shape to blog last night, AND I have a 10 am start today (praise Jesus!) I will blog yesterday now.

Work: Amazon Day! Much better than the past few weeks have been, way fewer parcels and was done before 2pm! Hooray! Morning started out a little rough. I had only a couple of hours sleep the night before (major legs cramps and insomnia issues... which slightly concerns me) and as many who know me well know, if I am tired I get super emotional. Combine my tiredness with my general state of mind and lets just say I cried all morning. My work homie kept trying to make me laugh, and I totally appreciated the effort. Hilariously, it wasn't until he stopped being ridiculous and tried to make sure I was actually okay and was serious, that we got me to lighten up. Quote of the morning Him: "....keep your head up" Me: "I had better or I'll end up in another ditch."  I've embraced that he isn't going to let me live that down for a while, and it is okay, we'll run with it.

Social: I went out after work to this place in Port Orchard that I was promised had the best bacon and blue cheese burgers around. While I can not bestow the title of best in the country, I will say that it was one of the best I have had in Washington. The best I have ever had was from Lazy Dog Cafe. I still miss the burgers and their amazing edamame. I get nervous eating food (because of the dietary needs) around people I don't know well and since people had brought their significant others and such with them I didn't know how it was going to go down. But I did really good. I ate the blue cheese burger without the bun and a salad, and had a rum and diet. We shared a basket of pepperjack cheese sticks at the table and that was the only non vegetative or dairy source of carbs I had. I think it helped that I ended up at a table with my homie and his girlfriend, and while I got teased (Hey, did you know your burger looks like a salad?) I know the actual judging was not there.
 We ended up there during a Seahawks game (this happens when multiple attempts to go out keep getting postponed due to Christmas rush) and there was a very excited dude who kept yelling. And this large group of people kept doing Seahawks chants. I was entertained. I love people watching. I am slowly picking up on football rules and so forth, although my friend who I spent Thanksgiving with her and her mom is supposed to teach me football so I can watch games and not be as confused. My friend (that makes the cute stuff) was supposed to come too, but she had to cancel at the last minute. I ended up wandering back and forth between the tables visiting with various people because I wasn't actually watching the game. I had a good time and am glad I went. (it was a good time in the storm for me) I was offered an out of the social obligations by one of my friends after they witnessed my morning melt down, but I said it would probably be better for me to go out than just sit at home.

Medical: On the way home I started really feeling like crap. The pain like when I had my kidney stone but instead of wrapping around the front of my ribs, it wrapped around my back. I am wondering if I should be avoiding alcohol for a while. That was my first drink since starting all of my meds. I also think, because of the leg cramps and some other symptoms that I was fighting off some dehydration. I have been pretty good about making sure I drink enough since the kidney stone, but I am going to am up the consumption of liquids for a few days. I really hope this can calm itself at least until my insurance starts up again, if not permanently.

The physical therapy has been helping a lot. It is now mostly my left shoulder and neck that hurt instead of the whole back and up to my head. I am hoping we can get me cleared up quickly because I need to be able to function at 100%.

While my schedule for today has changed slightly (going to carry a third of a route from someone) I am okay with this because I have stuff I need to get done. I did go to bed before 7 last night and other than a trip to the bathroom and a couple of smaller leg cramps I got a fair amount of sleep, so hopefully today goes well. I made myself a BLAT for breakfast (because both my lettuce and avocado were on the verge of inedibility) And have my last container of Christmas leftovers (lasagna and meatballs for lunch) Tomorrow I want to catalog the contents of my freezer and make a grocery list so I can start cooking meals here. I know I have a skirt steak that my new George Foreman grill is dying to cook. mmmmmm And I should have everything I need for tacos (minus lettuce) Can we tell that I really like tacos? I have decided that when I hit my goal weight (hopefully sometime this week or next) I am driving into Bremerton and getting a bean and cheese burrito from my favorite place. They are super carb heavy so I can't enjoy them as often any more, but if I exercise after, I should be okay. I am cleared to have the occasional flour tortilla and beans are fibrous. There are some perks to having your blood sugar mostly under control (my blood sugar is almost always within the range my doc is looking for and is always under 165) (being told that the occasional flour tortilla is okay is one of them)

Anyhow time to get ready and head into work. May today have more breaks in the storm.