Senseless ramblings

Today hasn't been either horrifyingly horrible or particularly awesome, it has been pretty average.

I did eat pretty good (haven't had dinner yet, but that is planned at least).

We'll do that before I say more:
Breakfast: 1 egg, ham, cheese, rest of the avocado that needed to be finished, 1/2 english muffin (roughly 17 or so carbs) tea
Lunch: Cobb salad, minus the egg. It was good and pretty huge. Only notable carbs would be in the cheese and dressing and veggies so not many at all
Snack: 4 sugar free licorice vines (~13 carbs)
Dinner is either taco bell or chicken kiev and peas depending on my mood in about 20 minutes (36 carbs)
Dessert? Ice cream bar 8 carbs

I should be eating more carbs according to the dietician, but after yesterday, I figured a lighter carb day wouldn't be the end of the world.

I took it easy in the morning, and then finally ventured out to go get groceries and so forth. Picked up some things to make dinners for the next week or so (spicy chicken strips, more cheese for pizza muffins, tacos, some soup, and other such supplies)

I am still trying to find a way to get eggnog flavor without all the carbs, a lower sugar BBQ sauce and other things that will simplify food prep without derailing my efforts.

I am also trying to figure out what I want to get out of my therapy sessions, and am reevaluating several things in life right now. (I have no clue why I am talking about this, but my blog, my thoughts, my rules) I had a rough patch in the afternoon, but tried not to get too down. Sometimes life changes in good ways, and sometimes it changes in ways that seem bad, but will probably be good in the long run, and although I am hoping that my life calms down with all the changes here soon, I am trying to deal with each one as it comes and be the best person I can be in every situation. Maybe I need one crazy big change and all the others won't affect me so much, although rational Stacey says now is not the time to make major life decisions. (this is a true statement if i  have ever heard one)

I was supposed to up the dose on my antidepressant on Wednesday, but was told I could wait another week or so when it was first prescribed. Because of the stomach issues I decided to wait. But I am supposed to give some feedback to the doctor at some point this week (probably next weekend, and we'll adjust crap as necessary) I might wait to up the dose until I get feedback, but I might go ahead and do it in the next few days. I don't know. I have my therapy on Tuesday, and a really long day on Wednesday so I might wait til Thanksgiving or so.